Not Done Fighting

Results From My Biggest Appointment

This was one of those monumental appointments. It’s been on my mind for well over a month, and as it got closer…I found it difficult to focus on anything else. So many questions and so many possibilities loomed. Would I get the crushing news that yet another chemotherapy round was ineffective, resulting in my lymph nodes growing & cancer spreading? Would I be granted a reprieve? Could it be somewhere in the middle, forcing me to live out a purgatory scenario? What’s for dinner? These questions along with so many more furiously burrowed into my brain. My only solution/coping mechanism was to surrender it to the universe, Let Go and Let God, or however you want to put it.

Finally, after a night of weird dreams and decent sleep, it was time to wake up and drive to Moffitt to get the results from this past Saturday’s scan along with lab work.